That's Len's suggestion for this post title. Why thank you, my love! I do feel all glowy and lit up right about now.
Today was the big day. I was scheduled for my first radiation treatment at 6-something tonight but got a call to come in at 4:40pm if possible so I did. But let me back up and start in the morning...
Len and Nana took the girls to the pool after breakfast while I went to a Tibetan meditation class to try to prepare mentally for treatment. The class was full of both patients and caregivers from all over the world. One guy was from the Netherlands and had just had surgery on a tumor in his head. Another woman was from S. Korea and another couple was from China. We spent 1/2 of the class in guided meditation and 1/2 in chanting which was actually quite nice. The room seemed to vibrate with our voices. I came away feeling calmer and better able to focus.
Since the media center was right next door I popped in to see what kind of literature they had and found a rather nice size selection of children's books. I found 4 that I thought would give a good explanation of where I was going every day and why and checked them out. When I returned home the girls had just come back from the pool so we sat down to read our new books while Nana fixed lunch.
Butterfly Kisses and Wishes on Wings by Ellen McVicker
The Invisible String by Patrice Karst
You are the Best Medicine by Julie Aigner Clark
Mom has Cancer! by Jennifer Moore-Mallinos
I self-edited as I read some of it, taking out the parts about losing my hair, chemotherapy, etc since I won't be doing that. Instead I just inserted radiation, talked about what that was, and later this evening I showed them the picture of me in front of the big machine so they would know where I go everyday. They were both pretty quiet and only asked a few questions, mostly about the marks on my body, why I can't swim, and how long I'll be gone every day.
After lunch both girls went down for naps but then Lucy woke up a bit early crying out so I went in to get her before she could wake Kate. Lucy ended up falling asleep on me for another hour while I read a book on my iPad.
"BURN, MOTHERFUCKER, BURN!"
And I felt much better!
It was over with fairly shortly and in reality, was pretty anti-climatic. I felt....nothing. The technicians made a few more sketches on my thighs and pubic area and then took more pictures. When Len saw them later he said, "Looks like gang signs." I think it's just a form of hazing or a way to keep things interesting in the radiation chamber frankly.
So I received my schedule with all my dates and times of treatments for the entire 6 weeks. I have weekends and Thanksgiving day off. But I still go in on Black Friday so I guess I won't be rushing any stores that morning for the latest hot toy for 3 year olds.