As spring breaks go, ours was pretty uneventful. It rained and rained and rained...and then rained some more. Oh, and it was cold. So it pretty much sucked, especially now that FB allows someone who is bored and cold see how much fun friends are having in decidedly warmer, sunnier climes.
We spent one morning in the library checking out and reading books. A couple of friends came over for playdates. We went to see Beauty and the Beast and took a trip into Chicago for a dental appointment and lunch in our old neighborhood.
Unfortunately, treatment with radiation has had its own dire effects on my body. It knocked out my ovaries which produce testosterone. It sent me into instant menopause, killing any estrogen stores I had. This, as you can imagine, leaves me feeling tired, asexual and has completely transformed the way I feel...and not in a good way. She suggested that I might be able to "try" some forms of estrogen therapy but if I do, I will have to return every 4 months for scans to more closely monitor any effects the hormones may have on the cancer.
I told her I needed to think about that one. I'm not really sure what to do. My quality of life has dramatically changed for the worse but is that worth the risk of causing the cancer to grow which would make my already tired body even worse off, risking the need for more radiation or even surgery? It's a lot to take in but the majority of me is thinking about the two girls I still need to raise...girls that will need me alive and well. Wellness that I don't feel but at least a wellness that keeps my tumor at bay...I haven't felt well in nearly 5 years (yep, I've almost made it to the 5 year mark, post-radiation...a milestone in cancer circles). I certainly don't want to F that up.